My photography isn't pornographic. The photos I take of myself aren't pornographic either. My hair is the color I want it to be. My make-up is done the way I like it. I choose who I am. I dress how I want. I am who I am. Period.
I'm so tired of being judged. The person who judges me is "family," though we're not related (and it's obviously not my husband). And, I cannot take it.
Guess what? I'm not perfect. I like being a weirdo. I like that I am who I am regardless of what others think of me. I proudly make jewelry that many girls wear even though you think nobody wears brooches anymore. I have an industrial piercing that means more to me than just a piece of jewelry. It won't come out of my ear unless it has to come out.
I spend my life doing everything I can to be a good person. I try to make everyone happy and I do my best to make people feel good about themselves.
And yet, I feel like I'm constantly seen as a piece of shit in this person's eyes because I don't have black hair, a real job, and I shoot pin-up. I may not cook all the time. I may suck at cleaning and being the perfect housewife that you think all women should be.
There's nothing I can do to change these things. I'll always be this girl. This woman. She is me and I am her. You do not need to approve of me. And, I do not need your approval. But, I just wish you'd stop talking shit about me like I'm completely deaf.
I already struggle with my self esteem and complete lack of self worth; I would just like to not feel that shame from other's around me. That's all.
Ugh, I'm sorry to hear that you're getting this wholly BS judgment from someone who really ought to know better. If this individual is so concerned about 'ladylike' behavior, this person should know that a true lady keeps her unkind, judgey thoughts to herself and never tries to tear others down.
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