Stray

Took in a stray today, just until we can find her a good home. She smelled terrible. I gave her a bath and towel dried her off. She fell asleep in my arms. And it was at that exact moment that I knew without a shadow of a doubt what I need from this world. 

High.

I’ve been having a rough time keeping it all together lately. Purposefully giving myself work to clear my head of the immense pain. Distraction never works. It’s just distraction.

And I keep telling myself that the easy way makes more sense. But my heart doesn’t want the easy way. My heart is 100% for the hard stuff. 

The immeasurable tough stuff that has the power to completely obliterate my very existence. 

Have you ever wanted something so deep within your soul that you are in physical pain? You lie to yourself because easy is easy. But when you stop thinking and you just feel- you can see clearly what you need?

Holy run on. 

Grey’s Anatomy. 

Everywhere.

It is everywhere. 

The stars. The clock. The trashy tv.